Saturday, August 28, 2010

A Moment of Success

It tried again.  That stupid, sneaky darkness.  It hides and waits and watches.  For that moment of vulnerability.

The moment when too many things are going wrong.  That moment when I haven't had enough sleep or healthy food.  That moment when I'm feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders.

Then it starts its dance.  Its entrancing, bewitching motion.  It weaves and undulates.  It sedates.  And it pulls and welcomes.

Tonight it tried again.

But this time I saw it for what it was.  This time I remembered who I was.  Where I'd been.  What I'd done.  All I'd learned.

And this time I won.

Isn't the light beautiful?

19 comments:

Just Another Person said...

oh that's really cool. I'm happy to read your success story. It's a nice feeling when you know you are doing the right thing and your hard work is being paid off. Keep trying.

Texan Mama @ Who Put Me In Charge said...

very nice. so descriptive.

The mind is a tricky place to navigate, and lucky is the woman who is learning her map.

CHERRANNE said...

:)

BlackEyedDog said...

It's always such a good feeling to kick darkness in the butt^^
I'm glad you made it!

xoxo

Bonnie said...

Now THAT'S something to celebrate! No amount of "there, there, I know it will get better" can substitute for standing on the other side knowing it did because you made it get better. You are woman! Roar at darkness! Yeah!

Katie said...

That is wonderful! Out smarting our own minds! Hard to do that is quite an accomplishment! Go My Lady!

MaggieJo said...

why celebrate? that's why!

Jessica Grosland said...

Good for you, Mom. :)

Kazzy said...

Yay! I take some of the credit for all of the bazillion texts we have sent back and forth. :)

bernicewood said...

Robin,
I am so glad you were able to stand up against it! My psychologist says that being able to step back from ourselves and see our situation and our reaction is a healthy step. Congratulations!
Bernice

Running Circles said...

I love the abstractness of this post. Simple yet beautiful. I'm glad you had this moment but happier you preserved it.

Mrs Gloves said...

Way to kick darnkess's butt! Love your writing.

...stopping by from SITS...

❦TattingChic said...

Good for you! :D I hope you don't mind me popping in here! But I sometimes have the same situation happen to me! (we have the same friend on FB - Marshall Mendenhall)

Melissa aka Equidae said...

wonderful post and of course so happy you managed to take over that black hole :) passed by from SITS

Eclipsed said...

Now that is a victory that should be celebrated. Enjoy your light, it is well deserved.

bluecottonmemory said...

The mind is a battle field - an un-resting battlefield when we so want to rest! You explained it perfectly. Kudos on your victory!

Christine said...

This is a lovely post. I saw your 3-word descriptor over at SITS and I had to come check you out. I'm painfully honest and moody on my own blog. My life is full of ebbs and flows of emotion. So this post hit home. Good for you for finding brightness and for finding it in a way that you feel you conquered something! Your words are very eloquent.

Debra said...

That was a beautiful post. I really loved it.

Kimberly said...

I've had that moment...that not giving in, FINALLY recognizing and remembering moment. And what's amazing is when it happens, again and again.

Not always, this is a process, after all, but now it happens more often than not. The light outnumbers the dark and finally there's enough light to see by.

So glad you found it. =)