Saturday, January 3, 2015

A Time to Heal

It's a new year.  A fresh start.  Sure, there's no big difference between December 31st and January 1st, but there actually is.  People all over the world are taking this opportunity to examine their lives and decide what they want to change.  How they want to improve.

I love that!  It feels like a moment of unity for our entire species.  That doesn't happen often.

I don't do resolutions, but I do examine my life and look for a new focus.  I choose ONE WORD.  There will be one word that guides my year.  I never know exactly how it will play out.  Some of it is how I change my actions; some of it is the natural flow of life; and I believe God brings people and experiences into my life to help me, because I've opened my heart up to Him in that way.

In the past I've sometimes stewed over what word to choose for the next year.  Other times I just instantly knew.  This was one of the latter.  As soon as I thought about the new year and what I wanted to focus on, a word came to my mind.  Clear and strong and spoken.

Would I go so far as to say God chose this word for me?  Yes, I would.
This year God wants me to HEAL.

The word and a feeling came strongly.  But the feeling was an open one.  Heal is my word, but much of how I interpret that will morph throughout the year.  What I do with that word is largely up to me.

So when I was given that word the first thing that came to mind was working on my physical health (which I think is the direction most people who know me would also go with it).  I have some health struggles that I've sought answers for over the past several years - to no avail.  They interfere with the life I want to live.  They interfere with relationships.  They interfere with who I want to be.

Then I felt selfish.  Always looking at how my life will change.  Always focused on me.  Maybe it's meant to be an outward thing.  Maybe I'm meant to heal others.  Who would I want to heal?  My family, my friends, my parents, the world.  But I don't actually have the power to heal others.  I have the power to help others heal, but only God can truly heal.  And maybe He and I will spend some time working together to help others heal.  I'm open to that.

In order to figure out what God was really asking of me, I pulled inside of myself.  I took a deep breath.  I opened my heart.  And I asked, "What does this mean, this word heal, for me this year?"

And then I wrote:
 - finances
 - past
 - Christmas
 - physical health
 - food issues/habits
 - house
 - garden/yard
 - car management
 - Mother's Day/Father's Day/Parents' birthdays
 - my boundaries/obligations/desires for relationship with my parents
 - mental health separate from my past
 - spiritual health?
 - daily habits/time management
 - relationships?
 - from relationships
 - coping strategies
 - self-soothing
 - self-care
 - household
 - computer
 - writing
 - my relationship with my body*
 - wanting
 - codependence
 - control issues

So, not much.  (Just kidding on that not much thing.)

The question marks were because I'm not sure if He and I think that is an area I need to work on this year or if it's just something I felt I should add (seriously, a moment of allowing myself to be directed by societal expectations; sheesh).  The asterisk is because I felt added intensity from Him on that one.

I know some of these may not make sense.  Some of them don't seem to fit.  But they do.  And they do make sense in my head and my heart, even while they are still left free-floating and undefined - waiting to be discovered.

Because that is part of the magic of choosing one word.  My year is spent in discovery.  How and why does my word apply in this situation, whatever the situation may be?  How does applying my word to this experience affect my growth and my happiness and my peace?  How will this word change who I am?

It's a wonderful journey for me.  Full of magic.  And wonder.  And inspiration.  And challenge.  And failure.  And growth.

I can't wait!

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5 Comments:

Blogger Jo-Anne Meadows said...

Hello there, my word for the year is compassion you needed to know that didn't you, when you get to know me you will realise that I am a compassionate person but not all the time and I want my compassion to shine through more this year. My life is also filled with magic and wonder and those other things you said but it is also filled with self doubt and feeling like I don't measure up and yes even failure these are the things I would like see fall by the way side this year and I have more and more wonderful days where I like and love myself and who I am

January 3, 2015 at 3:26 PM  
Blogger Jo-Anne Meadows said...

I want to be able to follow you via email so I can come back and annoy you more often

January 3, 2015 at 3:30 PM  
Blogger Empty Nester said...

Everyone's list is personal so, if it makes sense to you, that's all that matters. I can relate to a few things on your list myself. I took a little quiz to find my mantra for 2015. It is: I've Got This! Surprisingly, it's just what I needed. Who knew? LOL Thanks for visiting my blog and commenting!

January 3, 2015 at 7:07 PM  
Anonymous Sherri said...

I like your word... Heal. It is an all-encompassing word... I could see that some healing in one area would result in healing in another.

I don't have a word. The start of my new year has been chaotic with things like family illnesses and horrid financial woes.

But there's only one place to go from here :) UP!

Happy New Year my friend!

January 4, 2015 at 10:33 AM  
Blogger Homemakersdaily.com said...

You sound hopeful. I'm happy for you because hope is a powerful thing.

January 5, 2015 at 7:02 PM  

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