It's after four in the morning. I'm tired. It's dark and quiet. Why won't you let me sleep?
Don't you understand what tomorrow will be like for me? I have things to do and people counting on me. I want to sleep. Why can't you shut up?
I know you have a million ideas. I know you want to plan for tomorrow, which chores we'll do and which errands we need to run.
I know you want to review today, thinking about what we got done. And, more importantly, what we didn't. Yes, I know there is still so much to do. But it's four in the morning; we really can't do it now.
If I go out and start cleaning the living room and sorting the books and toys one of two things will happen. I will wake someone else up and they will be miserable, too. Or, it will just make me even more awake and I won't get any sleep at all tonight.
It's easy for you. You don't have to worry about limited energy. Why are you the only part of me that never seems to get tired?
And why do you take such pleasure in torturing me? Do you get some kind of sick satisfaction from keeping me up all night? Is there a battle being waged between you and my body?
It's not fair, you know. I am trapped in the middle. Trying to maintain the peace. Trying to meet your needs and my body's needs. Do you have any idea how difficult that is?
Of course not. You worry only about yourself. It's all about you. "Look at what I can do," and then you take the stage. Performing songs, stories, and wondrous feats to dazzle the mind. To occupy the thoughts and senses. To stimulate the body into producing adrenaline. Because you are afraid that if I go to sleep you will lose your audience.
I guess that's kind of true. You go on performing while I sleep, and when I wake up I have no memory of all you've done. Sometimes I have a slight memory of the shows you put on while I sleep. Quite the imagination, you have there. They are fantastical shows.
If I promise to try to remember, will you let me sleep? Let's give it a shot. I will listen and watch while I sleep. You put on your best show. And in the morning we'll review. Do we have a deal?