The beginning of a new year is a great time for evaluation. A time to think about where you are in life, what things you want to change, how to make a better you.
Once a year to evaluate life? Are you kidding me? I do that at least once a week, sometimes every day.
Needless to say I do not make New Year's resolutions. I tried a couple of times when I was younger and it was not a good thing. I am a perfectionist at heart. Like, to a clinical point. So I don't do well when I mess up. Really, really not well. I know this about myself. And since I haven't beaten the perfectionist thing yet I dropped the resolution thing instead. Sometimes you need to honor your weaknesses.
However, I do believe in self-improvement. I believe in changing life to make it what you want it to be. And I am just now coming out of a dark time in my life. A pretty big funk. I am ready for some change and some light.
I am ready to get back to the quest of me. Finding myself. The true me that I want to be. Connecting to purity and truth in the universe that will make me feel more whole.
Doesn't that sound nice. Just reading it makes me take a deep breath and feel better.
I do want a focus, but nothing too specific and restrictive. I want a more bohemian feel to it. Loose and free-flowing. Too much definition kills the peace that I am looking for.
I am going to protect the space/time continuum. My space/time continuum.
Space and time are interesting things. Both are infinite in the universe; however, both are limited in our individual lives.
Because they are limited I want to use them wisely. I am not happy when they slip by unnoticed and disappear into nothingness. Never to be seen again.
I am concentrating more on my time. Whom I choose to share it with. What I choose to spend it on. And refusing to let it be stolen.
Similarly, I am protecting and reclaiming my space. Deciding who and what gets to share it with me. It's not so much about getting rid of things that are taking it from me as it is creating more of the space I want. That I crave.
It's not about cleaning and organizing. It's not about scheduling better and saying no more often. It's about choosing a better way of life for myself. It's a paradigm shift.
It's about looking at life through a crystal, letting all the facets shine in majestic glory. And letting them radiate in my soul.